Olivia Post

First off, I apologize for my lack of participation here--I will really try to be better about posting on time next week.

It's crazy to me that it's basically mid-February. I have been writing pretty regularly, which feels good to be producing. However I'm in a state where I am not quite feeling what I'm writing. Revision is a big part of my process so I am trying to reassure myself that at least I'm writing... maybe these are "idea poems" that will bloom into work I feel better about when I take a second look. Because this is my senior thesis I'm finding myself putting a lot of weight on that... I really want it to be good. But this standard I'm holding myself to is not allowing me to dissolve into the poem and be fully present with the unfolding of the piece-- rather I am being too self-conscious. In the fall semester I found that doing a little meditation before I sat down to write really helped clear that inner critic. Should resume.

Last week Marci and I met pretty briefly. With the department review and meetings with Elmaz we unfortunately didn't have a lot of time. I'm really looking forward to writing and hanging out with Marci more in the next couple of weeks. We've had some good conversations with Lindsey about the importance of getting involved in the bay area reading culture, and so we are on the lookout for events. Lindsey also sent us this link with a bunch of readings in case any of you guys are interested: http://www.mothershen.com/pages/openmicdirectory.html
Friday I checked out The New Sh!t Show series in San Francisco and had a nice time. Any suggestions for readings to check out? Hope you guys have had a good week and will get to relax this weekend.