I'm working on revision right now and it's a real beast. I have all these scenes and no real great idea for how to connect them all and make it clear what I want to tell. I guess I'm realizing as I write that the story I originally set out to write isn't the story that I am still writing. I'm getting a lot more interested in the mother-daughter relationship each day, which means a lot more writing to develop that new movement and a lot of editing out other scenes so that (for thesis, at least) I can really focus in on this one thing. But I have a lot of doubt, because I feel like I'm reaching a point where whatever I do I'm stuck with--it's too late to go back. It's such a different feeling, working on a project that I am passionate about with this deadline looming over everything. Makes it all feel more like a chore than a creation, more like it's set in stone than like it's an evolving adventure. And it's also weird focusing on this one story, because I don't have time for other writings, but my usual process is to work on a bunch of different stories at once. I don't then know what to do when I'm feeling burnt out on this one. At least, the characters are different enough that if I get burnt out on one I can start writing in another perspective, but that's not exactly what I want to do. I don't know what I want to do, and that's the real problem.
Blech, what a downer of a post this is.
SOMETIMES you just need to get your head out of what you're doing and draw a picture of what you want the story to look like, or a story board. It's unbearable to feel this bogged down and i know how it feels. GRRR, Breathe, Good luck
ReplyDeletei also have that feeling of pressure of deadlines and awareness that this part of the story doesn't fit here. kind of a way of denial for me at the moment, not wanting to admit something doesn't belong in the story colliding with the need to have such and such pages. good luck, look forward to reading your work.
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