Dearest Class,
I am very happy to have experienced this with all of you. I couldn't have asked for a better group. You were all so supportive, smart, and talented. I look around the classroom and everyone is an inspiration to me.
What I will most take away from this class is the communal spirit I can find in writing. Writing has always been a solitary endeavor to me--and I've always liked it that way--but I learned for the first time the real benefits of working closely with other writers to produce your best work. It was such a relief going in to workshop and knowing that I could trust everyone's critiques would come from an intelligent and well-intentioned place. Even if I didn't agree with everything that was sad, it all gave me something serious to think about--not just with this piece, but also as I move on and develop as a writer. I will be thinking about what you all said about characters, temporality, and structure. I will keep that with me as valued insight. And from this, I know better now what a joy it is to pour over someone else's pages and give them all of the care I have in me, to truly take the story at its own level and understand where it's trying to go. To respect our separate visions, and to cherish what they can produce when mixed together.
I am proud of the work that I have done this semester. It's a longer piece than I ever intended to write and continues to grow each day. I know this is something I will be toiling over for some time, with breaks here and there to work on other things, to go back to my beloved flash fictions or to pen poetry. And when I write, whatever I write, I will take my lessons with me. I will remember to appreciate others, and to trust my instincts, and to read read and read, and to remember what truly matters to me. In these four years, I have developed a strong artistic voice and I will never be silenced again.
So let's go to the highest roof top and scream our hearts out.
Love always,
Katy.
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Kate's Week 14
Reflecting
back on this semester, I am not happy with myself. I slacked off all semester
until I couldn’t procrastinate any more and had to get stuff done. I know that
I am not where I want to be with my thesis because of this, but also because I
didn’t do the necessary preparation work to be in a good position at this
point.
I
don’t know why I am surprised. I do this every semester. Get behind on one
thing, then another and another until before you know it you are behind on
three things in each class. Eventually that leads you to be behind all the time
know matter what you do because there is no hope for catching up — classes
don’t slow down, they rev up towards the end. I know this, and yet still I
procrastinate.
Overall,
I have learned a lot about writing. I have learned that…
1)
I like to take my time and really think things through before I
start writing.
2)
I brainstorm a lot and over and over again, so I need to leave
time for this.
3)
I change my mind a lot, so I need to keep all the versions of my
stories so I can go back a pull from them.
4)
It is okay to write crap. You need to get the crap out to get to
the good stuff — and yes, this takes time.
5)
Learn the rules so you can break the rules, and yes, I am still
learning.
6)
Listen to advice, but in the end do what works for you. Everyone
has advice, but no brain thinks alike so trust your gut, go with it and edit
later.
7)
Hear your own story. It is so easy to know your story, or the
idea of it, so much that you start to fill in the blanks. But if I take my time
and really read and listen to my story, its been telling me what it wants to do
this whole time.
8)
Edit, edit and edit. Save, save and save all versions.
9)
Talk about it, and more, and again until it spills over into
everyday life. I found that the more I talk about my story, the more I am in it
and can write. The more I think, talk and brainstorm about my story, the more
it moves and becomes part of me in a sense that allows me to take it somewhere.
10)
Research. For me, I thought, it’s fiction, what do I need to
research? The answer is everything! The more research I did, the more I got in
touch with my story, other people’s stories and why mine is different.
Although,
I am not where I want to be and my story is not even close to where I want it,
I know how it feels. How it feels to slack off and then pay the price in
academic shame when your peers read your story and see all the spelling,
grammatical and other errors. It also taught me that it is okay to fail. It is
okay not to be perfect. In all my failures, missed deadlines and late papers —
I’ve learned — I’ve experienced what it feels like to be a writer. Not just for
school, but for you.
I am
a writer and I write for me.
A big
thanks to the entire class for reading my work and giving me amazing feedback
and a huge thanks to Elmaz and Margaret for putting up with me this semester —
never an easy feat. I know it is not always easy for me to take criticism, whether
it be negative or positive, but you all were gracious peers. I appreciate you
all and wish you the best of luck with all of your endeavors.
I will miss you Mills!
Kate's Week 13
I know it's late, but better late than never. :)
Sometimes
going back is the only way to move forward
Today while doing some research on OkCupid I found this
Storify that I made about OkCupid last summer for a class I took. How funny
that now a year later I am writing a story about these same issues that I was
exploring back then.
I thought I would share some of them. Really helping pull my
focus today..
Although dating online is
different from face-to-face interactions with your intended, it might not be as
different as you thought. True dating online is awkward and uncomfortable and
sometimes a little stressful, but so is real life. Dating online forces users
to create their own dating rules, while at the same time reinforces dating mate
preferences that already exist to us. On the one hand people do not always know
what to do when they meet people online so getting to know someone can be
frustrating; by just jumping into a date you must find the style of dating that
works for you. I would like to explore how men date online and what their
experience is like to make their own rules and figure out how to navigate
through the online dating world.
^ This
testimony to online dating is interesting because it claims that the only way
to find a match online is to be a "boring stereotype of your gender"
Lindy West writes. West claims that dating websites have different advise for
men and women. For example men are instructed to post more photos because women
like being able to feel like the have a sense who you are whereas women's
advice for posting pictures is to not put only head shots because men want to
check you out. This is interesting advise because it assumes that men should
show who they are through their photos and women should show what they look
like through their photos. Why do men's pictures of themselves tell who they
are and women's only show what they look like? Looks like Women intelligence is
still measured by their looks or that as long as they are beautiful they don't
have to be intelligent.
Also,
If you YouTube “Shit People Say _______” and add in “online dating” or “dating,”
a mass amount of videos pop up making fun of online dating, what girls say on
first dates, why men never get replies and the list goes on and on. I found
this fascinating when I first found it and it is really helping me fill in the
blanks to my story.
It is
funny how now that I am at the end of this semester, I am back at where the
idea for writing this story first started. The reflection of my real life-dating
spree. Now that I am back at the beginning it is really making me think of who
my character is. Who have I made her? Who should she be? All things to think
about if I ever finish this and make it into a book!
Kate's Week 12
I know it's late, but better late than never. :)
I’ve really gotten behind on the Blog lately, so I have
probably will have a mass dump of blogs all in one day, so apologies for that.
But better late than never! J
Still really concerned with the fact that my complete draft
of my story is short of the 35-page word count, but it is finally starting to
come around.
I have finally finished the draft of the Movie Theater Guy
section. I hate it! I stopped writing right after she left his house and was
leaving off the details of the sex scene so Stef could reflect on them during
her ride home the next morning. By the time I got to this scene, I just
couldn’t write anymore. This guy. I want this sex scene to be different and
while my energy and motivation depleted just to get to this point, I held off
of finishing this section and turned my story in to the class as is.
**Spoiler Alert:
I wanted this sex scene to be more about sex and not so much
about how hot the guy is. This guy surprised Stef. He was awkward, weird and
uncomfortable. But by the end of the night, maybe because she was drunk by
then, he surprised her. She was intrigued with him and ends up sleeping with
him. Standard one-night-stand. But it makes her think. Why did she sleep with
that guy? Was it really worth the risk? But there is also something more, I haven’t
gotten there yet. Maybe that is why I stopped writing right before that part.
LOL.
The point of Movie Theater guy is that there is really
nothing wrong with him. She has a bias against him because she draws all these
assumptions of him in the first hour of their meeting. But he is a great guy.
She just doesn’t like him to do more than sleep with him.
Movie Theater Guy = good enough to sleep with, but never
want to see him again.
How do I convey that? Ha!
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